A Season of Shedding + Why I Share
I am in a HUGE season of shedding and letting go! I said in the last journal entry this was my season of letting go. With that also sometimes comes shedding. I know they may seems like the same thing. But sometimes I think of letting go as a more conscious practice, and shedding as a more unconscious or subconscious action. You can have one without the other. Shedding is also a practice of letting in. I just want to make you aware that you don’t always need to be “letting go” of things to feel like you are progressing or moving forward. Also, that progressing and moving forward are not the goals here. Sometimes you may not even recognize these changes as they are happening. But upon reflection can see all the ways you have opened up. I feel like sometimes it is difficult to put these messages into words because I say… “it’s a practice” but also “don’t strive so hard” or “don’t focus on…”. So while you are working on “bettering yourself” there is no end goal for when you can say “ok, I am better enough”, it is the actual journey of self discovery that is the “goal”.
So why do I share?
With the call to shed, I have also feel a deep desire to share. I know that the experiences I have gone through are not just for me, and my own benefit. But also for the benefit of the collective, and to be used as learning experiences. This may be part of explaining what is hard to put into words. I can give you real life examples of how things have worked out for me, including what I was going through, how I dealt with it, the outcome, and my learnings. Of course your scenario, journey and outcome may not be the same as mine - honestly, it’s not supposed to be, that would make for a pretty boring library of learnings! But my experiences may spark a knowing within you, or give you a little light and hope. Sometimes its just nice to know that you are not utterly confused alone 🤣
I share because I truly believe my purpose is to anchor more light on this planet - why else did I get sick, have to quit my job, delve deeper into yoga and meditation right before a global pandemic and perceived collective darkness / despair. The timing always works out, whether it is obvious or not!
How can you learn from my experiences?
✧ If you feel called to you can listen to / read what I have to share
✧ Take in what resonates with you, leave the rest
✧ Let my "mistakes" be an example for you of what you can accomplish if you stay true to yourself
✧ Reach out or share with a friend who could benefit from an Inner Story Healing Session
While you may never go through the same experiences that I have and will go through, I am sure that you can notice some similarities and parallels in my story and your own. We all have our own stories, that is because while we have shared experiences we all have different traumas and instilled learnings from childhood-onward that shaped differently how we perceive these experiences. Take a simple example, if you were told as a child that you were beautiful, the prettiest kid your parents had ever seen; you would have an inherited sense of self esteem in your looks. If you were told as a child, “don’t rely on your looks”, “your nothing to look at”, or “you really need to get rid of that baby fat” “ look at those chubby arms”, you would have an inherited lack of self esteem and would question your looks and what others thought of you. How does this translate to adolescents and adulthood? If you have a friend who makes a casual comment “is that really what you are wearing?” or “did you remember to brush your hair today?” and you have the inherited self esteem, you would probably brush that off and carry on. If you already question your worth, this can send you into a tail spin or rifling through your closet and needing constant approval on your outfits; or, changing a hair style, rewashing and restyling, throwing on a hat, or hiding in the background. This can apply to anything in your life. If you find there is a constant story theme that comes up for you start looking at the people closest to you. Did your parents get divorced and you feel its your fault, were you in the middle of their arguments? Do you have an older / younger sibling that got all the attention and praise? Was there a death that changed your family dynamics? A mother that was constantly worried about her looks, or maybe not worried enough? A father that expected dinner on the table and a clean house when he returned from work? Were you always picked last for school sports or kept out of friend groups. These experiences can all give you a different story than I have. Meaning that you may have different projections and triggers than I do. But I wanted to share a few common, and seemingly simple things, that can have a lasting and large impact on your story.
Intergenerational Trauma
While these are not particularly elements of my story that I am shedding, it is very similar. And these examples are only from this lifetime. Depending on what you believe, or are opened to experiencing this does not include the intergenerational traumas that I am learning about, integrating and shedding. Does the term “intergenerational trauma” resonate with you? It did with me! I want to give you a brief intro if you think this might be something you are interested in, I am by no means an expert, but I have spent a lot of time learning and growing through this. Again, depending on your personal beliefs (reincarnation, multiple lifetimes and realities, time as non-linear, soul families, higher consciousness, dharma / purpose, etc) you may have a sense, or experienced memories from another lifetime. I know, some people say it’s all a load of crap, I am just sharing from what resonates most with me. I red a book a few years ago… last year… a few months ago… I don’t remember, that really got me. It was a book about past life regression and the journey of our souls. In fact, it was actually called “Journey of our Souls” by Michael Newton. I picked up this book which was divinely given to me by a friend that thought about it after a conversation we had, and I could not put it down. I had never felt more seen and understood. This book really spoke to me. It was my first time reading a “self-help” book. Yes, anything that is not fiction, science, travel, or history falls into the “self-help” category. Ok, this may be a broad statement, but I’m not far off. What was so magical about this book was how it was case studies from actual therapy sessions, where 29 chapters worth of people all experienced the same things in the cycle of life and death. This led me into studying higher consciousness, manifestation, souls, etc. Through this I started experiencing strange dreams and meditations. I have experienced numerous past lives through my own meditations. Ok so your obvious question, isn’t this your imagination? Something you saw in a movie? The power of suggestion or hypnosis? My answer… yes, if that is what you believe, I am not here to convince you otherwise.
Personally, these experiences helped me to feel more understood and seen and learn more about myself, so be what they may, I honour your beliefs and hope you can respect mine. I have also experienced “memories” from alternate timelines and lifetimes with the same people present in my reality now in other positions of influence. Think, your current mother as your sister; or a current friend as a parent or sibling, even someone you meet on the street and “recognize” as a friend or loved one. These relationships can change from life time to life time, but often your contracts and soul family stay the same. Because of that, there can be intergenerational healing that needs to take place. Think even as simple as: your great grandmother was a house servant, poor and starving, your grandmother grew up starving and struggling to put food on the table, your mother “made you finish everything on your plate” out of a lack mentality, now you have an unhealthy relationship with food and over or under eating. These are all things that you can heal and shed for your lineage. Stopping this cycle and creating a new healthier story for your lineage and soul family. Ok, I can go on about this, but I don’t want to overwhelm you. By all means look up these terms if you would like to know more. I’m sure I will share more, but the is my “brief” intro into the topic.
To get back on track…
I share because had someone not been bold enough to share these concepts with me, I might still be stuck and struggling. Had I not reached out for help - whether that’s friends, family, or a professional; I would not have a new and greater self awareness. I know these journal entries often become really random, but like I said, sometimes a message that is beyond this reality is hard to put into words.
I am sharing for the purpose of sparking something within you, by no means do you need to feel bound by anything I say. Take what resonates, leave the rest 😘 That is what I have done as I grow and expand. I use my own discernment and feel into the information I am absorbing from others, and I shed the fear of being weird! Knowing that those whom are meant to be will come and go as was predetermined. We will all serve our purpose in each others lives. But that the most beautiful thing about this human existence is free will, and the opportunity to learn and grow.
Take a few deep breaths, shake off what I have said, and have an amazing day!!